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Meredith Viera. She's actually kind of hot, in a warmly nurturing, maternal sort of a way.
Disturbing Freudian stuff aside, I can clearly state that I'd rather sleep with her than Regis.
Disturbing Freudian stuff aside, I can clearly state that I'd rather sleep with her than Regis.
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I'm hurting a bit today, as I analysed some things in the shower (almost the only time I have alone with time to think), I realized that I have a great fear of commitment and distance myself from purity in the traditional sense of the word, even though I'm a softy at heart.
I thought about my "innocent days", when I was pretty happily married, living in San Francisco, (where my 4 best high school buddies were living) making coin as a stock broker, enjoying the luxury of living in an apartment in the sqeaky clean Marina District with a view of Alcatraz. I also remember that my wife allowed me to be totally free and do whatever I wanted and she trusted me and I trusted her. I had always been a guy who loved hanging out with his friends, a group who were always pushing the envelope, but never crossed the line. Somewhere, I realized that my wife was in reality not some body who gave me a bunch of freedom but emotionally distant and obsessed with order and perfection, things that she took care of while I was having fun. Somewhere along the line, I realized this and became bored with the mundane and spiraled out of control in a way and become sceptical and bitter. Especially when I moved to her country, in an effort to please her, only to face huge personal obstacles and lose a part of my identity. In the process of reinventing my self in order to adapt, something went askew, not allowing me to ever feel secure or trust the sanctity of a relationship, and always on the lookout for the selfishness of my partner. I'm a self destructive fuck in reality. Destroy that which bindes you, destroy things that will hold you in place and "trap" you. Heavy shower realization.
I thought about my "innocent days", when I was pretty happily married, living in San Francisco, (where my 4 best high school buddies were living) making coin as a stock broker, enjoying the luxury of living in an apartment in the sqeaky clean Marina District with a view of Alcatraz. I also remember that my wife allowed me to be totally free and do whatever I wanted and she trusted me and I trusted her. I had always been a guy who loved hanging out with his friends, a group who were always pushing the envelope, but never crossed the line. Somewhere, I realized that my wife was in reality not some body who gave me a bunch of freedom but emotionally distant and obsessed with order and perfection, things that she took care of while I was having fun. Somewhere along the line, I realized this and became bored with the mundane and spiraled out of control in a way and become sceptical and bitter. Especially when I moved to her country, in an effort to please her, only to face huge personal obstacles and lose a part of my identity. In the process of reinventing my self in order to adapt, something went askew, not allowing me to ever feel secure or trust the sanctity of a relationship, and always on the lookout for the selfishness of my partner. I'm a self destructive fuck in reality. Destroy that which bindes you, destroy things that will hold you in place and "trap" you. Heavy shower realization.
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VON..I love Denmark and I enjoy living here. I have a lot of freedom and can be myself without too much hassle. There are so many good things about Denmark that anyone who gives it a try can make it, if they put the effort in and do the work of learning the laungage and has a positive attitude. There are way too many foreigners here who piss and moan, but do nothing to improve there cultrual capital or give anything to the Society. I don't go around expecting Denmark to be like America, I respect that I need to be more Danish in order to function and get the most out of life. In a way, it has made me a MUCH more interesting and capable person.
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good point, Cope. I just wish that the government worked through the middle instead of using cheep tricks like "Dansk Folkparti" and scare the shit out of people with the "dangerous" foreigners. Most Danes talking about too many muslims in the country don't know any. They live in smaller cities and in the country. Trust me - i grew up in Vestjylland
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VON..yes..racism is a big problem here.....but I have to say that while many people here also are kind of anti American and sceptical, when they get to know me they are quite nice and pleasantly suprised that I'm actually ok. It's always a work in progress, and if you do the work and don't fear discrimination, then you probably will make it here. But you do indeed have to drop the chip on your shoulder and be humble, and try to fit in and adopt the local customs.
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